And a few more comments on life...

And here I am, writing a bit again. So here goes.

Life has been weird lately. Up and down. Good and bad. Today I was depressed as hell, periodically I've felt depressed and lonely and out of it like crazy.

But at the same time, it's been good. Confusing and like, strange, but good. Quite good. Better than it's been in a while.

Strange it seems, that in order to be able to like feel honestly good and happy there has to be hte bad. But really, it isn't all that strange. They're the two sides of the coin, and you can't have one without the other. When you flip a coin, it's never gonna always land on heads.

And that's part of what you gotta enjoy about life.

You can't always like, have good. And therefore you need to savour all of the good in your life. Savour it, live it, love it. And when the bad comes, do the same. Live it. Don't fight it. That will make it that much easier.

And uh yeah. Feelings, attractions, love, hate, emotions, they're all kinda fun. You've just gotta enjoy them.

More Comments on Life

So I will be boring and short here.

Life is life. As hard as we may try to resist it, it won't stop being life.

But then there are things in life that we really should, rather than try to resist, help.

Will return to this if I feel like it.

Comments on Life.

Now, there's a lot of stuff I could say about life. I mean, there's so much to say about it. Besides "it sucks" or "i hate it" or "its awesome" or "i want to marry it".

For one thing, it clearly does not want to make sense.

I mean that in the nicest way possible, but still. I mean like, look at it this way. We can try to understand it, but we never can. Ever. Like, no matter what. We can try really hard, but still we won't be able to.

Though sometimes I never want to understand. Half the time I want to just... accept exactly how life is. I hate to do it, but I find myself doing it anyway. I just contradicted myself a bit there.

Damn. I'll come back to this later.

Drugs and shit.

So here I am. Tired, bored, unable to really think straight. I'm kinda just sitting here, pondering everything. It's uh... interesting.

So I'm done with this now. Too bored.

First Post of May

First may blog post lol. I've kinda not felt like writing here, Twitter is kind of like the quick fix thing and shit. But yeah.

I'm working on a short story for a school contest. Might not go all that well but hey, it'll be a worthwhile endeavor.

I'm also uh. yeah. i dunno. sitting around. and stuff. Yeah.

So uh... yeah.

I don't know why I'm updatingthis. I mean, I don't think anyone actually reads it. Haha. So yeah. Uhm. I'm not going to post much else. Twitter pretty well works for this. And stuff. So uh yeah. I'm not going to write much of anything else. I'll just kind of ramble and stuff. Because I'm really bored and whatever. So yeah. Stuff. Drugs. beer. foolish mortals and drugs and fun stuff. So yeah, and so we go. Buh bye. Ha.

In regards to stuff...

Considering how close i am to being done my i-monk training, I am anxious to try things such as video games and pop after an entire week without it. But who knows, maybe my need for these things will be lessened? Who's to say really, but we shall see how things go.

I personally am really proud of myself for lasting for an entire week without all these things. It's pretty impressive.

A bit on my progress...

For the record I don't get why I write this blog when no one reads it, but it's kind of nice to put my thoughts down in typed form.

So my Monk training has been going fairly wellish, I've been able to stick to all of the things I said I'd stick to, and that's good. I mean, writing has been a pain due to writer's block, but if I include the time I've spent at school writing it's been very good.

Which brings me to my third point, being that lately I've noticed that my writing tends to get inspired more by what I see and hear than anything else. Like... at school I seem to be able to come up with at least some things because of the fact that I can see and listen to and be near a large part of my inspiration, that being the silly thing we call "attractions" and "feelings" and crud. And so it becomes iffy, because when at home it really is hard to like, actually write anything. But still, so long as I can get something done it's all good.

So this has been a longer post than I would normally post, which is cool. Finally feel like I took some time to do this.

I-Monks

So I've been workin on active self development through the neat social network called I Power. And so, this week I'm not doing a lot of crap. Such as video games, candy, soda, nail-biting, etc. It's pretty crazy, but should be a good test of my willpower. So yeah... it should be fun. Might post some more later. Maybe.

In regards to the literacy test...

It is a piece of crap waste of time. Seriously. I mean, standardized tests in general are. But a standardized test we hafta take in Grade 10 that is judging us on stuff we did in like, grade 7 is not a good use of our time. I lost two and a half hours of my life because of the Ontario Government today, and for that they will pay.

Apparently there is a store in Montreal that is all about anarchy. I need to go there. Seriously. And then take a train all the way to Toronto, and then begin my war against the Ontario government. And then all hell will break loose, and with good reason.

Case in point here is that I like to waste time, but being forced to have my time wasted because of a standardized test enforced by the government? Now that is just wrong.

On Devil May Cry 4

I love this game. It is so effing awesome. It makes me feel badass. Dante is probably one of the coolest characters ever, and stuff.

He goes around and starts to shoot stuff, stabs stuff, runs around and like, does all this cool stuff, trash talks and then owns. And when you play as him, or Nero even, you feel badass, like you could take on the entire world and kick their asses without a single bit of effort on your part. And that is an awesome sauce feeling.

Assorted Jellybeans Productions

So I've recently started up a machinima channel on the Youtube called Assorted Jellybeans Productions that will be posting machinimas pretty soon. Five videos are currently up, and they're all really dumb but kind of fun. 

Level 80... and stuff.

So I got to level 80 in World of Warcraft, mwua ha ha ha ha ha. And like, yeah. I really need to start writing longer blog posts because these tend to be almost like, Twitter-worth. And so it's kinda silly really. So yeah. 

Stuff

So I've been very busy... playing WoW. Obsessively. And you know why ? Because I'm a WoW addict. But I'm so close to level 80! So Close ! Less than 2 levels away ! Mwua ha ha ha ha ha ha ha. 

Busy Being Dumb

So I've been using Twitter a lot, because it's actually quite fun. I've also been playing World of Warcraft obsessively, because that's fun too. haha. 

I am going to get to level 80 soon. It is my destiny. For now and forever. Mwua ha ha ha ha. 

So I'm Bored.

So I'm bored. And like, yeah. There are times when I'm reeelly bored, times when I'm reeelly reeelly bored, and today I am very bored and stuff. 

On another note, I've recently been playing WoW a lot more. It's not really a healthy habit, but yeah. 

So.

Lately I've been thinking that really, weird stuff happens in life. And I mean like, what else is there to say about that? 

That's kind of a waste of a post, but once again no one reads this. 

On School.

So, math sucks.

Like really, if we don't need to know the stuff because we don't plan on using it, why should we be forced to learn it?

Same goes for pretty much any other subject. I think that through and up to maybe first couple grades of high school, we should be taught this stuff and after that focus on specific areas that we are interested in, or continue to have a more generalized education. I mean really, I wanna be a writer, so I don't really need to know about quadratic equations. Case in point here is that it is useless information I will never bring up at dinner parties. 

So we should just like, have more focused schools that way. It'd be better. 

Suckiness

Ugh, so I have an exam left on Monday, so lame. and yeah. i dont wanna have it, but hey its life I guess sort of. but yea. lol. 

On another note, I've found GoW 2 actually fun. surprisingly. 

So I'm Bored

2 exams left. one tomorrow, one on monday. kind of a pain to have one then, but what the hell, who really cares. 

I'm bored, which is why I'm writing a blog post. 

New Prince of Persia

Pros: parkour and running and jumping is just as fun if not more fun than before, and is still just awesome. Scenery is incredible and the music and views are really nice. The Prince grows on you after a while, which is good. 

Cons: combat is a bit meh, plot is a bit meh, elika is a bit meh, collecting stuff to continue on is a bit meh. 

Dammit.

I keep forgetting to add stuff to this. crimony. 

Uhm, so I've been writing, it's been cool. It's good times and stuff. lol. 

Exams are sorta done. Sorta. 

Life is pretty chill. 

I'm totally mellow and relaxed and stuff. 

And yeah. Bout it right there. 

Maybe I'll actually update within a month next time.